Yesterday’s NaBloPoMo prompt asked “If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?”.
It didn’t really take much thought for me to identify something that I would like to change about myself. For months I have told anyone who will listen that I wish I could be less introverted. I really enjoy meeting new people but I am very shy initially and sometimes I feel a little socially awkward. I usually don’t spark conversations with people. I am one of those people who speaks when spoken to. In large crowds, I am usually the one who listens, nods, and seldom chimes in. I have tried to figure out ways that I could break out of my shell a little more.
Lately I have been purposely trying to do things outside of my comfort zone to break down this barrier. I really hate public speaking but each semester I sign up to teach a lecture on nursing care plans. It makes me so uncomfortable to stand up in front of 25+ people and teach. The first few minutes I sound like I inhaled helium from a balloon. As time passes, I am able to relax and by the end I am fine.
I should give myself a little credit. My social skills have improved dramatically from when I was younger but the process to becoming more extroverted seems to be taking way longer that I expected. I need a remote that enables me to fast forward to social butterfly stat! Is there an app for that?
If you could change something about yourself, what would it be?